I’ve been thinking about resolutions for next year - what solutions can address how weird it’s 
been to lose friends just because I refuse to pretend to be who they want to see or think I 
should be - see I don’t have time those people or getting caught up thinking I’m not equal - 
especially now that I’ve got rhymes for what kind of shit I won’t tolerate because it’s those 
things that make me who I am and explain why I don’t give a damn about expectations I can’t 
reach if they can’t teach me anything new 
-
now my mental and emotional health are where I now derive my personal wealth:
they give me confidence to say that I’m well because I’ve got the nerve to use my words to 
articulate what my souls been creating underneath how suffocating it was blazing every day 
just to maintain - so the only people I blame are the ones that used my love like it was a game 
but holy shit if they could see who I became they wouldn’t dare use my name except to say,
“He’s not the same and I’m ashamed but I’m glad he seems okay,"
but hey - I’ll give them the consolation that their betrayal fueled a concentration to make 
everything I write a dedication to fight 
-
ultimately there’s no place for spite in my life and my nights are like a construction site for the 
destruction of assumptions to make way for a new introduction that will start with the 
combustion of someone I never was because my pen’s a loaded gun and
this isn’t just for fun anymore or to outrun hiding an anxiety I couldn’t be more than just a son 
because I’m as bright as the sun when I focus on who I’ll become and I won’t be outdone so I 
dare you to run, try to tell me I’m not enough or to give up:
from now on I’m gonna live up to who I decide to be and give up thinking I need to confide in 
anyone else but these lines or waste more time getting high or thinking getting by was enough 
to feel good about who I am inside 
-
now I’m here to look you in the eyes and call out the lie that your government is on our side 
when they’re riding is armored cars paid for by putting minorities behind bars and use war
profiteering to commandeer the idea what’s in between your ears isn’t rightfully yours;
and even though this country’s founders swore men were born equal,
they prayed under steeples built by people denied rights only because they 
weren’t white and justified it with a philosophy that they were really just property 
-
see if history isn’t properly taught well never elevate our thoughts past thinking happiness can 
be bought or admit everything that’s been fought for is a power only cowards value because 
they use it to excuse their abuses; and though I may be a romantic but there’s no need for a 
muse when the news is a bunch of corporate prostitutes without a clue of what it’s like to walk 
in the shoes of people they accuse - they’d rather we all just consume;
but I fucking refuse to sit down - so I’ll stand to speak up and and out about the men we should 
all accuse - and I’ll gladly be the one to lite the fuse to a fire and inspire destroying the red, 
white, and blue people salute because those colors aren’t absolutes
-
If anything they represent vanity and a fallacy that Christianity is the surpreme morality that’s
really been a boot to the face of humanity and a threat to our collective sanity because the flag 
is now a tapestry that’s an outline of a tragedy; 
so maybe my resolution will be to make more people aware of their delusion so they 
understand what collusion really means because I’m gonna scream if I hear we need to make
America great again when Dr. King's dream is what's at stake again 
-
and because there's no other way out than through, i'll spend 2018 raging against the machine 
to be someone my niece and nephew can truly look up to because I only consider this a 
preview of what i can really do - so bring on the new year and consider this a correspondence 
to clear my conscious to make it clear I no longer fear what I hear in my subconscious and 
in the face of an administration passing out laws like toxins failure is not an option and 
I will not proceed with caution




TM Colin Corpe 2018.